Ferra Lynn

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2009-12-20T05:21:00.000-08:00

hi!

lets be normal.

okay, thanks...

bye(:

p.s: i totally miss you like crazy. but its NORMAL.

pretty special

2009-12-16T10:52:00.000-08:00

this song is dedicated to a friend.

i started writing out the lyrics when i was in sec 4.

i was helpin him style his hair, to look cool enough for his date with his then-crush.

then, when he went off to meet his girl, i went home straight away to my guitar.

i wrote some shit, and this is what they were:

is it the way you make me smile
thats gonna make me stay for awhile
or maybe im just dreaming to deep
untill i can hardly sleep
i dont know why i thinkin this way
today, of all the days

i dont care at all
if you wana see me if you dont wana see me
i will always think of you
as someone pretty special
i dont care at all
if its her, you most prefer
i will always think of you
as someone pretty special

my heart beats.
fooling my emotions
its makin me delirious
with everything infront of me
youre everything to me

is it the way i fall to you
when i know im feeling blue
or maybe i just seem to know you
since two years ago
i dont know why im feeling this way
today of all the days

i dont care at all
if you wana see me if you dont wana see me
i will always think of you
as someone pretty special
i dont care at all
if its her, you most prefer
i will always think of you
as someone pretty special

my heart beats.
fooling my emotions
its makin me delirious
with everything infront of me
youre everything to me

bet you never knew did you.

i guess its true that i am no princess. as i never got my happy ending.

i think im more of the girl at the sidelines.

im good at keeping emotions. thats my specialty

im awesome at bottling up everything inside of me, no matter how much i wana scream it out loud

why? because i didnt want to lose you.. like how i am now...

because i didnt want you to act different and cold

and most imptly, because i was scared to say th words...

and hey, it all ends up the same. cause once again.. my happy ending never came.

well i guess this is goodbye.

im sorry honey, but im passin out now look this way!

2009-12-16T10:37:00.000-08:00

omg ytd at starbucks i saw iswat.
LOL! he looked like some skinny chinese rapper dude with the big headband and all.. LOL
the was clearing out the tables at S.B but wasnt wearing uniform.
prolly helpin out his gf? (the almost emo hoodie girl? lols)
hahah rebonded hair.. looks... umm.. interesting.. hhahahah

then went to lilly's hse to pick up bikes but only one was workin so we walked all the way frm her hse to mine. it was so long.. FML.

but it was ok, listened to songs n stuff
then lilly hung out in my room for hours n hours n we did our hair, and webcammed and watched videos and listened to songs and picked out dresses, played guitar.. it was SO girly!
ok im SOO sleepin over ewe's hse one day! shud organize one w lilly n naf n stuff((: DIBS ON EWE'S NEW BED!

i wish i could spend my forever with you.

the vision of it happening is so clear, but the reality of it is so dim

damsel in distress???!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?

2009-12-15T00:56:00.000-08:00

and ytd night, the WORST thing happened.
i was from naf's house so i walkd home as usual and took the usual route.
it was night so it was alrdy dark.

then there was this guy who just got off his bike and he caught up to my pace.
then he was walkin with me.. like a fucking stalker.. looked me straight in the eye and said hi.
so here's what happened:

*...*:- thoughts

(....):- actions

lynn: *do i fucking know this guy?* (smiles and walks fasterr)

biker dude: (takes off his gloves) so, walking home huh?

lynn: uhh yeahh hehe.. turns away

biker dude: oh, so where do you live?

lynn: ummm..... heh.. ^^ (walks faster!!)

biker dude: *catches up* my name is hafiz, whats yours?

lynn: uhhhh....... ( HAHAHAHAHAHHA HAFIZ! thats what my mom keeps calling afiq.. i cant wait to tell her abt this! oh wait.. he's waiting... shit! i cant think of a fake name! ok nvm ignore!)

hafiz: ummm, ok.. so you attached? (still catching up to me)

lynn: (nods and gave him the 'awwh... sorry' look)

hafiz: cant we be friends??? whats yr age? cik kak, cik adik?

lynn: * R YU KIDDIN ME MR? YOURE OLD ENUF TO ME MY BROTHER, CREEP!* (i walked like super super fast, like almost running!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

hafiz: (gave up on catchin after me so he stopped walkin...) ohkay... byee....

oh my god i was so thankful that he didnt chase after me then rape me then stab me to my untimely death and carlisle would appear right before my absolute death and turn me into a vampire for all eternity and i would roam around singapore searching for cats to suck their blood or something..

what would be so scary...

i had just wished....... he was there...
walkin the same route as i was... protecting me..
making sure i was home safe.. all the time.... like how it was..
but nevermind.. its okay. i guess yesterday night, ive learnt that:

i am no damsel in distress..

*note to self! buy pepper spray...*

p.s!

2009-12-14T19:30:00.000-08:00

OH! and i totally banged my head on my bunk bed again.
it was so loud that my mom woke up=.=
what a way to start the day.......

dreams and gifts

2009-12-14T17:49:00.000-08:00

hello kitty stuffs

thanks for the notebooks n stuff guys(: (p.c i buy myself one)

yesterday went rp to fetch ewe. and met naf to pass some stuffs.

but before that amir wanted to meet up to pass me something. haha

it was a dreamcatcher!! so that i could finally sleep i suppose.

thanks jacob.. its.. kinda perfect*this is supposed to sound like bella^^*

so anyway, went to rp and had like loadsa fun crapping aound with ews and naf.

like old times.

it was awesome....

tomorrow supposed to go cycle with lena and this cute guy. LOL! just hope lilly can make it..

2009-12-13T20:28:00.000-08:00

i could sleep last night.
not cause i didnt think about him, but cause...
i was just tooo tired. and i was sick.
but oh wells.

woke up damn early to fetch st's prezzie... DAMN HUGE N KINDA HEAVY!
walked from home to lakeside and back home, it was damn hot cause it wasnt raining n shitt..

then watched UFC with zacky, OMGSTFUBBQ it was so cool! hahahaha
frank mir is awesome, gaf submission to check congo in like the first round!!
and bj penn made diego sanchez's whole face bleed like crazy! his forehead slpit open in this really horrid wound! i get goosebumps just typing this!!

then went to kak wani's house.. cause my parents n her parent were talkin abt my bro n her wedding! coolshit... i love the satay thingy! damn...

went swensen's with st, justin, lena, daniel, and two of st's frens for a bday dinner.
st n justin so sweet laaaaaaaaaa! ^^ i love them!
then hung out with lena, by the waters at istana park.
we talked and talked. i kinda miss that side of lena. oh well.
we concluded that WE HAF NO BATTERIES and we're running out of power..
(cause st is justin's batteries.. she morivates him to run all day long! lolls)

i got a cute notebook from my clique.
they chipped in to get me this hellokitty diary thing.
is SOOOO cute!
i love the gang!!

then got home and... just poofed into bed. (: finally..

today: prolly gonna fetch ewe at rp. and meet naf.

"As long as we can see the same sky, breathe the same air, step on the same planet, then You and I are not impossible."

my favourite poem

2009-12-12T04:53:00.000-08:00

Indennts to mind

Waves of confusion
Antagonizing pleasure
Neverending pain
Thinking of past

The 'once' future
On heated coals

Like a cat?
On cooles stones
Venting no anger
Everytime

Yes~
On to the shouts
Undermining

i already did..

friends and felines

2009-12-11T19:16:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary;

i did it again.
inflicted deliberate pain on myself for no apparent reason.

i couldnt sleep last night. again.. like every night i suppose..
Sixpence none the richer is on reapeat for hours and hours.
my mind travels far but i am never asleep. its frustrating, y'noe..
thinking about all the possibilities, all the could-haves and what-ifs.
and about the things that happened in the past.
its physical pain, this mental breakdown. it is.
i hate crying

so yesterday lilly bailed on me last minute. in the end, hang out with wann to waste some time.
kinda crazy. i dont know if it seems like im hiding my emotions, but i can totally be normal with him.
then met up with ewe at j.e oh my goshh.. i miss her so very much.
we hugged the moment i saw her and then everything fell into place.

went to her house, and FOR THE FIRST TIME, an auntie did not say anything about my hair.
i love ewe's mom for being so cool.. (:
then, i sort of slept in her room while she bathed and got ready. i really missed her room.
time flies when we chill in her room, seriously. its like magic.
and fidi was asleep so it was okay hosay.

then went to scape to meet up with naf, nad, farahin, adelina, afiqah, and nad's bf and cousins.
fleeeaaa market packin up already. managed to grab some stuffs for people's birthday.
apparently, i got a belated bday gift myself. its a charm bracelet. its so gorgeous..

then went to eat lasagne and catch up. damn i wanted to hang out more with naf but it was just so late and i was so tired and sleepy.. next time, definitely.

so i got home at around 11 plus, and "slept" at around 12 plus.
well, not really.

pain

2009-12-10T19:33:00.000-08:00

last night, i was in pain.
like, it felt like i was LITERALLY in pain.
cringing from the hurt, squeezing my eyes to control the pain.
but my tears gave me away..

i tried so very hard to control myself
but i felt like i was bella when she was asleep everynight when edward was gone.
(except for the screaming part, i didnt scream i guess)
i couldnt breathe properly, my heartbeat was crazy...
its crazy, its all crazy...
my friends told me to calm down. amir wanted to call me, but i literally couldnt speak..

ive never cried this bad, since kak lina passed on....

Let It Go

2009-12-10T02:22:00.000-08:00

I'm on the verge of a breakdown

I'm on the brink of an epic meltdown

I'm on the way to a flat line

No, I don't really want to leave you behind

But apparently you can't stay all mine

So I'll try to let you go

You're not mine to own

If I let it go

If I let this go

If I let you go

Would the scars continue to show

I'm on the verge of a crackdown

I'm freaking out, got a bottle of jack down

I'm on my way to a blackout

No, I don't really want to leave you behind

But apparently you can't stay all mine

So I'll try to let you go

You're not mine to own

If I let it go
If I let this go
If I let you go
Would the scars continue to show

I'm on the verge of a breakdown

escape the fate is the fuck-yeah-baby

do YOU suffer from philophobia?

2009-12-09T08:43:00.000-08:00

http://devilcalling.tumblr.com/ (naf's blog)

so i read up on it...

Philophobia is defined as the abnormal, persistent and unwarranted fear of falling in love.

A restless feeling of being betrayed in love pricks you and unrests your mind. You do not feel emotionally secured in life.

This eventually affects the quality of life and pushes you away from any sort of commitment.

It also triggers various symptoms in you that may incorporate sweating, irregular heartbeat, shortness of breath, feelings of dread, nausea and feeling of restlessness. (i have those =.=)

The worst thing about fear of being in love and falling in love is that it keeps you apart from your loved ones and drives you to a painful solitude.

(ok this makes me scared.)

You feel alone but every time a situation arises for commitment, you get panic attacks.

You may fear rejection and that pose as a great reason of embarrassment that deters you from even getting involved with anyone.

wow... i am scared to be an old hag who lives with no one but cats all her life.

but mostly, im scared to fall in love.

cause im scared to get hurt again and again.

its painful isnt it. very very very painful..

perfection in the form of a garden

2009-12-09T05:47:00.000-08:00

ok i look like a retard. but yeah whatever.. looking retarded is a talent.

Dear whoever;

why do you have to tourture me so muchh.

you pull me close but deep down i know you wished that was her in your arms.

and not me..

i know you dont want to hurt me, but you are...

i cant let go, i cant push you away. im torn, dammit

today, it rained damn heavily..

i was in my room, locking myself up from the world.

my mom came in and asked me whats wrong.

i couldnt answer her..

my eyes were dwelling with tears, i couldnt control.

i was about to say something as i stared at the window..

and it just... rained.. out of no where. with no sign or reason. it poured, just at the right time as i did.

what a coincidence.

then at five pm, i hung out at chinese garden with.. yeah.. a friend.

we sat down at the almost top of the tower thing where we could see everything.

then i poured my heart out, just the same as the rain several minutes ago.

my eyes just couldnt stop crying todayy.. and yet i was so stubborn as to still laugh out loud abt my misery and plaster on a smile.

then, suddenly, i felt totally in a peaceful state of mind.

at least he knows... for sure...

then we hung out at this bridge in the sunset.

it was sheer perfection. perfect is like, the most apt word to say it i guess.

i mean. oh my god... sitting on a pretty little white bridge during the sunset with the bestest guy friend ever.. just, perfect.

i dont know if im gonna be more hurt than i ever was after what happened today.

perhaps tomorrow i will feel less pain,

perhaps tomorrow the hurt will be more intense.

i dont know. i'll tell you when i do.

TEAM BARBIE!

2009-12-06T18:50:00.000-08:00

yesterday morning my brother gave me a kiss and said i smelt like a barbie doll..

and then i was wondering...

"hmm... wait... he smelt barbie dolls before??!?!?!? ok thats officially sick!"

WELL if you dont know, barbie dolls have a really significant role in my life.

from age 3 to 12, barbie dolls have been my obsession.

EVERYTHING has been about barbie.

so i KNOW the smell, i KNOW the nostalgia it brings to me when i smell a barbie doll product.

if it does not have that new plastic smell, with the ever so distinct barbielicious scent in her hair, it is NOT barbie.. SO DONT KID AROUND WITH ME.

so i had like some kind of malibu barbie with a bike, except, my bike is pink.

and i had this series of collection called My Scene, which mine is CHELSEA! i totally loved her.

And i had THIS playset but mine was abit more modern cause i could REALLY make like little cookies with it.. (the cookies were yummy sia.... damn)

and i had like THIS polaroid..

i had like, a radio playset, a doll house, a salon, a bed and bath spa thingy, and marykate and ashley barbie!...

BUT.......

i threw them ALL away...

why? because i grew up.

and i had no space to keep all my barbie stuff.. how saddd....

if not i could haf like sold them for like tons of cashh... DAYMN!

(believe you me my daddy burned up alot of money for my dolls)

oh wells, now barbie's like totally modern and shit, and ive lost interest): tragic...

when i haf a daughter, i really cant wait to spoil her with all these!!

so anw, ytd went out w my family, and stuff..

my feel hurt now cause i was walkin in high heels for like, 6 hrs. damnit....

and we watched new moon, for the millionth time! heheheh

i saw this white girl with "TEAM JACOB" on her tee... WTFWTFWTWFWTFWTWF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF ANYONE SEES A TEAM JACOB/EDWARD T-SHIRT ANYWHERE PLEEEAAASE TEXT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its driving me nuts....

CHRIS CHAOS AND SAM PHANTOM!

2009-12-01T02:02:00.000-08:00

let me introduce you to..........

CHRIS FUCKING DAKOTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU BITCH~ (yeah i call him a bitch, so whut?)

Kick off your stillettos Kick off your stillettos and fuck me in the back seat fuck me in the back seat.........

we're not falling in love, we're falling apart...... all the time is wasted, pretending we're in love

-the medic droid, from the song, FER SURE MAYBE!!

i think im going to go insane pretty soon. this is a list to explain my insanity.

1.im attracted to bisexual visual kei, former scene boys.(see above)

2.i keep sniffing my mom's neck for her scent(cause she uses different perfume everyday!) and it makes me want to do it more and more.. i feel like a hot vampire doing it, tho!

3. i wanna do 2. on other people, see how they react!(just curious, ynoe!)

4. ALL and i mean ALL my teeth are sharp! (except of course, the middle four on top and below) besides that, all of em are sharp (should i be alarmed about this?)

5. i dreamt about my ex and his happy life with his gf and i was in horrible physical pain looking at them.. and it made me feel shitty. FUCK MY WEAKNESS

6. im listening to punk, techno and emo ALL AT ONCE. yep, my brain gna explode SOON.

7. i feel cold every fucking day. and its not cause of the rain...

8. worst of all, i have feelings for a guy who is a total opposite of the ideal guy who i always go for.. what th fuck is THAT about? i mean, i always go for the tall, fair, guitarist, vain badboy type.. but my mind is driving me crazy over this random opposite? cb i hate myself for this!! best part is, he wont know(yeah, i wun let him kno)

anw, im SO not jamming with sufi no more.. nuff said.

p.s: thanks mubarak for tuning back my guit,

and for being concerned... pree.shi.8..

ive been bored today so i music surfed... and boyyyy do i have a bunch of new(not necessarily new) songs!! WAAAAAAAAAAAN!!! im so gna show off my playlist of songs to yu next taime we mit! :D hehehhehe ok nt reli.. i bet urs is better.....

anw, ytd hang out w bestie again... yup, it was like, damn normal.. quiet and normal(:

then had dinner w the familie. and lamb chop LAAAAAAAAAAAMBBBBBB IS LOOOVE.

the Ulu Kelang people are back in s'poreee!! i sooo cant wait to hang out w them and see what they bought at uk!! hahahahah and.. how the trip went i suppose, or whatever.. HAHAH jkjk(:

meeting lillz tmr... hmms, wonder whut we'll do...

short post.

2009-11-28T03:48:00.000-08:00

does everyone think im fucking deaf?

stop repeating all the words you say. my God!!

so tmr im gg jamming with sufi and wann... who ever wana come with? im dying for candy...
I WANT CANDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
hehehe

well, hangin out at cg, watchin new moon over and over again made me feel the need to meet MY own personal brand of heroin... my own edward cullen.. i dont know.... just feels like it may never happen...

why? because im always the buddy, the one you find when you're broken n hurt..
im your own personal healing potion. seriously...
i love that aspect of me, dont get me wrong... its just that.. well, who's gonna be there when im hurt? i dunno... bella is so lucky...

i want to read your mind. please let me.. i just want to know what you really think of me.

i.love.the.twilight.saga

2009-11-26T05:26:00.000-08:00

NEW MOON WUZ FUCKIN AWESUMZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love edward! and jacob! AND bella!! i mean, ive never loved more than one character in a movie or show before... this is like the first mayn...

and the ending made me feel like hugging someone.. seriously.. luvit! i cant WAIT for eclipse and breaking dawn. shittazz!!

i wana be a vampire baybehh~

I LOVE MY BESTIE! yup, got a prob?

2009-11-25T00:37:00.000-08:00

Give me a break.

I am IN THE MOOD for some spankin' photoshoot session here.
just waiting for lilly to be free so we can do that makeover shizz she was talkin bout last month yo.

and im like dying to camwhore with TOV! like, seriously mayn...

so yesterday was aweshumz or whut;

hung out with bestie like all day. it totally felt like old times. that feeling is tha best(:

well i realized that i cant possibly expect him to entertain me all the time. i mean, phsyeah its like so unfair. so i had this whole train-wreck-running-over-my-head thang going on and i was like...

"look. how did you make things alright? BY MAKING THINGS ALRIGHT!"

like, DUH.. i mean... i cant just sit there and do nothing. that aint right yo! so i DID stuff.. and 'poof'! i realized that i was the same old me when i acted like an idiot just for the sake of making him smile!

yaaay! *smiles like a moron* i found myself again!!

so any fucking way; we went to the librareh to watch a movieh but the librareh laydeh kinda kicked us out cause we cant watch movies=.=

library auntie: excuse me, err cannot watch movie here ahh.. clear cut. cause blablablabla( i kinda stoned out and didnt listen)

lynn's mind: how the fuck is it "clear cut" that we cant watch a movie in the library with headphones on-.-

ironically, she didnt kick out this old man beside us who was fucking sleeping on the table that was on the floor, who was taking up much more space. can i hear a biiatch?

so anyway, we continued our movie watchin at his house(:

oh my im starting to HATE scary movies... especially when its based on a true story!!

after spookin ourselves out till like ard seven, i practically had to FORCE bestie to go to mac w me..

lynn: pleeeeeeeeeez

afiq: dowan ahhh.. lazyyy...

lynn: *whines like a girl*

afiq:okayokay, let me close the laptop first.

lynn: *smiles like a moron*

afiq: okay lemme get the keys first

wait i need to go to my room first

lemme get my slippers first

lynn: *whines again*

so we made it a fast one and dashed from his house to mac and back to his house.

and we took the friggin stairs yo!

even when we went back up to his house! but he kinda gave me a piggy back ride.

my god, i was SCARED FOR MY LIFE! we could haf fallen and died on the stairs!! ok but we didnt, if we did i wouldnt even haf typed this shizz by now..

ok so we had dinner at his house, then his mom and siblings got back and his ibu was like:

o.o ... what happened?

she was like starin at my yummylicious hashbrown hair. hahahha dang! now im scared to face my relatives during raya!!!

then after dinner kinda accompanied him to train. with irfan and stuff.. was onn-ing like hardcore songs all the way!! rawr~!! then amir n wii came then kinda watched amir n bestie like, spar and stuff... damn! its like watchin UFC. but live!

then he sent me home, and i was FUCKIN TIRED YAWW.

mommy was a lil bit pissed cause i went hme late. but its all okay now(:

then, just as i wanted to chill with daddy n watch some good ol cartoons, my bro n his gf got home. and they brought visitors: my cousins!! o.o

i mean, dont get me wrong, my cousins are cool but theyre LOUD! and i wanted to sleep...

so i had to stay up and like, ynoe... take up space in the living room.

i.stayed.up.till.three.fucking.o'clock..

the blonde ordeal part 2

2009-11-23T16:49:00.001-08:00

i have gona thru alot of shit to get my hair this way..

cause "professionals" are very picky.

they want a brush, they want things to be just enough, they want the right environment.

oh fucking well,

so kak wani did my hair for me and DAMN the dye hurts...

but after an hour or so, i washed my hair and yeah, it kinda got better....

sorry, the pix dont really show my hair but yu get the idea..

then after the dying thing, went to like, lepak ard and play guitar... yeaps, kinda peaceful-ish...

then ytd, (oh that all happened two days ago) went out with my BFF!! woohoo, went to camwhore at botanics and stuff.. then i was hungry, like seriously, im a hungry monster this week idk why... then we ate until we wana die of full-ness..

a simple yet meaningful dayy...

p.s: the best day about the last day of school is that i get to eat with bestie, at the comfort of my own home.. heheh (:

the blonde ordeal. part 1

2009-11-20T01:29:00.000-08:00

OK, for this "round" i got zacky to do my hair for me..

abang aki : what.... you need two bottles of bleach for your hair... its too long?

lynn: serious.. oh shit, well, just do what you can manage ahh..

and so he did. he used a trusty comb and a good pair of gloves and did my hair...

i waited for ard 2 1/2 to 3 hrs till i wash my hair... the result:

shit! i look like a bloody golden monkey ah lian!! (no photoshop people :D )

so i called 911 better known as my brother's girlfriend and so my bro texted..

"i will ask kak wani to help ya OK"

FRIDAY13

2009-11-13T22:42:00.000-08:00

YTD was friday the 13!! hahaha it was hella cool..

had a totally useless day of sch ytd cause we didnt study anyth-.- nv even mark attendance, shouldnt haf come sia!! lolls.

then went to lakeside t change, then met up with amir and wii to go to dover to support afiq's performace thingyy...

so met up with afiq's lil sister and this other girl (shit, i frgot her name im so sorry!) and then irfan then went to auditorium to see the performance. DAMN the whole room is full of rowdy fuckers.. euugh.. but its ok la, no one find tai ji, its all okayy..... so anyway perfomances were funny and amusing.. hahah hokkien singers??? silat fights? and ALOT of "tak perlu" comments by audience....

then afiq sing then we all like, scream and stuff.. hahahaha(:

then RUSH from SP to dhoby for JAMMING WITH TOV!!! weeeheee! omg im like super rusty sia.. lolls

ok i rushed then i was like an hour early-.- but then met up with tiqs and syd and mun then we ate mac at P.S 1st... then go dhoby met uo with achid, aly, and ahmad... then OFF WE GO TO JAM..

i got ALOT of practice to do!!! but i tried to be 'high' so i was like headbangin but my hair was too long? hahah then mun sae i possessed!! omg tanak siia... i DOWAN WATCH PARANORMAL ACTIVITY! im too scared.. LOLS! unless i can go w some guy who is brave enuf and wont miind me hiding myself behind him so i wont catch sight of the screen! or a girl, i dun mind. LOL!

today i overslept n was almost late for cca.. dang. the teachers scare me siaLLLLL... lol!

super sushi +promotion thingy

2009-11-11T16:09:00.001-08:00

YAAAAY ytd was hella fun(:

had this random talk w my dad and i was like telling him that me n my brothers used to mess up our room with tons of johnson's powder on the floor just so that we can go "ice skating" and like, slide ard and stuff.. hahahaha

and dad told me that i used to haf a super soaker... cause i always "steal" my zacky's one so he bought me one too! hehhhehe COOLSHIT!

then in sch we did our GPF, and settle PW and i shall never complain abt my life w.r.t PW ever AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then went to JP's kfc with yw, hanif, nabilah, siti, haiza, justin, hidayah, nazrul and we were like so damn high and loud n stuff.. lolls it was fun sia with them.. i never knew....

then went home w yw... then when i knocked on the door, no one answered... so i called momster.. then she told me to go down cause she n dad n zacky going to jp to eat. GODDAMMIT! so i rushed down and then the family went to jp to eat at banquet cuz mumsey wants carrot cake. lols. then we saw mama! who gave me five bucks! woohoo(((:

then went home and chillax with zacky, he was like onn-ing his ipod with all these crazy trance songs.. oh goshh... then incredibly, i went to sleep... then woke up in the middle of a "growing up" episode on ch 5.. LOVE that show...

then, went to get ready and so me n zacky went to orch to pick up kak wani and we ate sushi at ciney!! it was like AWESOMEness laahh(:

i love my bro(:

ok so later on, im gonna haf to face the truth to find oout whether i get promoted or not... OMG IM SO SCARED!!!! gonna face my doom in two hrs time... ><

lynnalee and ice

2009-11-10T00:48:00.000-08:00

MOHAWK inspired by bill kaulitzzz!!!!!!!!!!!

past two days haf been FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

two days ago, went babysitting with kak wani and these two "little monsters" but theyre actually not monsters at all!!! theyre like super cute and stuff..

then had this spaghetti gourging session with kak wani...

spaghetti with seaweed is like YUM.

then ytd went ice skating with yw, st, justing and xy... its was hella fun

then play arcade and camwhore.. weeee (:

then today, im a racist...

cause i seperate the blacks from the whites from the colouredS...

ok fine was seperating the colours of my clothes so im not REALLY that MUCH of a racist, hehehe... though i did rmbr PIE calling me a racist when he was my nazi armband but that was another story altogether... eheheh^^

OK gotta go.

oh and FUCK: i just realized that jammin with TOV is the same day as bestie's gig.. SHIT friday!!!!

BORED FUCK

2009-11-07T03:09:00.000-08:00

Been playing with myself the whole dayy... nono not THAT kind of play...

ive been playing the guit and doing my make up like alone in my room all day.

and ive been watching like zillions of movies just today.. -.- like zohan, ella, etcetc..

so BOREDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

best part is, JUST when i decided to make a video of a song, mommy said to get myself ready cause we're going to celeb hadi's birthday... DRAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! fuck mann...

now im wearing my tee and stuff... ok tak perlu tell you this info siia.. lols! ok then, gotta go. bye...

OP OP OP OP OP O P

2009-11-04T16:11:00.000-08:00

ok so im in school right now, eating my subway cookie... (thanks irfan for the cookie...)
feeling like shit cause i'd rather be at home in this lovely gloomy weather and sleep like a slob.
but im here anyway and theres no backing outt.. sighh.

so ytd, in school there was like fucking PW. urghhhs so tiring... one whole day of pw is like HORRIBLE. i cant wait for it to be OVER. one more freaking daaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy!

then, towards the end of the day of school, saw naufal.. hehehe i was totally like kacau-ing him la.. poor naufzzzzz, he want to study maths also cannot. hehehehe. then chill with him for a while talk talk gossip gossip. he call me kepo!! ahahah assholeeeee....

then after school met up with amir and irfan to eat at bk and just talk crap.. fun(:

then bestie called. hmms, congrats for being awesome for the audz.. dont be mad with me, if you are that is. which i think u are... i dont know.. sighhs. both of them can really like, tell that i feel horrible sia. i dont know how. :/

OK im hafing oral presentation practice very VERY soon... WISH ME LUCK!
for tmr as well, cuz tmr is the REAL THING!! aaaarrrgggggggghhhhhhhh!!! scared...

last three days

2009-11-03T05:05:00.000-08:00

today was kinda fun i suppose...

had stupid school -.- and like, hours and hours of PW.. fuck i cant wait till its OVER..

PW is like, bleahh...

then kinda comforted a darling friend of mine, due to some dumb pw mishap..

stupid pw.. hak tui!!

then went home with bestie... really miss going home with him and like, being an idiot with him..

sighh. but the tears didnt fall like last sunday..

okayy so last sunday went jammin with bestie's band. hmms.. they ok lah...

i like the drummer, he's like really good(: oh and the bassist^^

hope they get thru audz..!!!

but i absolutely hate the jammin location cause iits like really ulu and full of... umm... how should i say this... foreign people. yeahh.. you know what i mean by that right? the ones who go invisible at night?

theyre really creepy you know!!!

not only do they like to STARE at you like some weird creature that you are.. but they also like to walk like really near you, and like "creep up" to you like that. some even bump into my bro's gf.. dno if purposely or nt la-.-

bleahh, anway, went to bugis st to haf dinner at ljs. akward silences? i dunno.. then like dno why but i keep on thinkin of kak ina.. and then i feel saddd...

then in the train back home, i like couldnt stop lookin up cuz i was sadd abt the akwardness of me n bestiie... then he went alighted the train first. ok emo moments muchh? shall not say anyth more...

then ytd after mly a lvlz examzzz went eat pastamania with the girls and vay's clique.yumm... so fuuuulll after finishin my linguine.... then accompany justtin at the liibrary then follow him go cut hair... hehehe shit its quite short. nvm la when it grows it will be nicer i think((:

then went hme w amir ytd cuz apparently he FOUND and "borrowed" an umbrella and he happens to be at lakeside at the same time as me!! heheh how luckyyyy^^

halloweeeeen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and gig and proj.. heheh

2009-10-31T07:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

today was dead fun.. in the morning went to do our filming project and shit like that...
but it was quite fun ahh... the only thing that made my day at that time was being with ying wei.. whom i miss so much!!!

ok then, we went to lepak and kill time.
then, went leapk with amir cuz he's gg to gig with me.
i was freaking doin my make up underneath the blocks sia!! hahaha
crazy biatch. then went lepak lepaaaakkk...

then met up with achid and his gf and wan and sufi and mumu and ahmad and some other people whom i dont know... hahaha achid's eye make up was PHENOMENAL...

then went to odiocrib for the gig... it was quite fun la. i was kinda like headbangin n stuff..
wan sae i mosh like a girl -.- (dash dot dash) hahaha i wanted to headbang like hayley but i coouldnt cuz it seems like im the only crazy girl there... 0.0

then hang out outside,, spit at the floor from the 4th storey, (makin me officially in the brotherhood! hahaha), camwhore, talk crap... and blablabla... it was fun la actually...

im glad i invited the right person.. and i love my grp of frens they are so awesomezzz!

and otw home, i took a pic with the grim reaper!!!!!!!!! cooll:D

pix comin up soon?

sorry for the boring post(no time,, im typing RIGHT b4 sch!)

2009-10-29T15:25:00.000-07:00

The last three days had been really fun.. but only fun is after school.
In school, its been a rush! of pw and malay... (we completed the WR on time!!) hahaha i great feat for us C:

so anyway, three days ago, on a tuesday, hang out with rima after school. had like a random lunch thingy at mac and we got two free apple pies!! woohoo! thanks, monopoly thingy!!

then, we were bored... :
amir: uhhh... so what do we do next...
lynn: uhh.... i duno... maybe we could hang out near yr hse and play guitar?
amir: oh good idea ok lets go!^^
lynn: set!^^

and we quickly got our pies and went lepak-ing...
played random songs and stuff, and talked about a whole bunch of stuff...
like, his exes and my crushes and all those misery business....
dood! lets hire someone to get 99 red ballooons for us during new year then gather everyone and stuff! :D

so.. hmm... the next day, which was like... wednesday, it was so borin cause i had this OP presentation ): apparently, i need to work on some things... OK NOTE TO SELF: MEMORIZE SCRIPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then while waiting for the course at like 2, i was playing vay's random games on her iphone while they were chionging their WR... hehehehe fun fun ^^ thanks lahhhh vay(:

ok then after school, theres like this dumb pfotocourse thingg... bla blabla we took pix with a macro lens.. which was cool but i kinda suck at it as well.. lolls. hahahah
then after course, went to
then after photocourse, went to peninsula to buy guitar for miu! OHMY i dno how many times she said thanks to me! im so embarrassed.. ahhahaha but im reli excited to teach her(:

then, ytd, after school, went to eat with dai kor and st and stuff... then justin gaf this random analogy of us being dim sums and he's like, the chef?? is he? or sumth like that.. hahhah .

today, i got up in the morning with no hesiattion cause don kor2 gaf a message about sumth that i'd surely be excited about!!

i totally love my bros and my kors and my girls!

and i totally miss ying wei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pissing me off

2009-10-26T05:21:00.000-07:00

Character is Destiny..

Today, i feel pissed. Even in the morning. I just dont want to talk to anyone. But i guess certain people make me happier today(:

Do you know that i still like him? Do you know that i can hear your every word? Do you know of my feelings? AT ALL? i mean really, you dont have to go on telling the world about it cause it doesnt change a thing. Go on and live in youre own little world. Dont count me in. My friends told me to be stronger, and not be nice little lynn... Cause they know that i can step out of my boundaries.. And anyway, i like him, despite his flaws.

Yesterday went Arfses house to sorta teach her math, and to do my PW. then, went to have dinner with lilly and her family. hahahah i feel like im really her girlfriend, or maybe the bestest bestfriend.. hahahah! good luck with Os everybodyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then today after school went to meet wan to have waffys at yishunnn. ohkay, i felt really high!! He really made me foget my frustration in school. seriously, bros for life siaaaaaaaa....

then at night, he texted me something about some facebook status of sorts...

i feel happy for you, really..

flea.fly.flo.flan (mmm... flan.. yummy)

2009-10-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

today was quite fun c:

went flea market shopping with mel and st.

ate at BK first. which we found difficulty in finding at first!

then we flea-d!!

bought a two kinds of bracelets and a dress.. which im gonna show laterrr...

then went to far east to just walk around and stuff

saw ummu and yee hui!!!!! heeheheheheh hugged them and all :DDDDD

miss em real bad. forgot to ask y.h about her results tho! >< snap.

then i bought a biker jacket.

but when i got to lakeside, i realized that the girl at the shop gaf me thw wrong one!

you CANNOT imagine how pissed i was!!

i called daddster and he picked me up from lakeside to go all the way back to far east to exchange.

i was sooo angry, i plugged in and tried to calm myself down with crazy fast songs like "Ravenous" by finch...................... it worked.

i went there and the girl like said sorry a kazzillion times.. oh well.. shouldve asked for like, a discount or sumth! fuck. k nvm lah she also wana make a living.. -.-

then walked out of far east.. and daddy wana go smoke outside the mall..

apparently, there were alot of kids there, ard my age to 20 plus? i dunno..

so i asked dad to share his ciggy with me.. of course, he passed it to me.

then, the kids were all staring in disbelief. haha. stupid fuckers cannot smoke at home infront of their parents, wana boast their smoking abilitites in far east.

okay yeah i know, i look like a fag with a hairband!!

okayy... im a stupid tze lian girl! (how ever u spell it) as quoted by st

pretty pink bracelet!

you're gonna get yoir retribution, girl at the shop. i guarantee >=)

Lynnalee's infinite playlist

2009-10-23T06:28:00.001-07:00

a list of all time fave songs songs that i would like to rmbr for all of eternity:

1. +44____make you smile

2. AFI___the leaving song pt II

3. a skylit drive___a reason for broken wings

4. alesana___ambrosia

5. alesana___third temptation of paris

6. avenged sevenfold__seize the day

7. evanescence___missing

8. eyes set to kill___beauty through broken glass

9. finch___what it is to burn

10. from first to last___emily

11. good charlotte___predicatble

12. green day___time of your life

13. green day___when i come around

14. hawthorne heights___ohio is for lovers

15.matchbook romance___say it like you mean it

16. mest___jaded

17. natalie___going crazy

18. new found glory___i dont wanna know

19. nightwish___amaranth

20. pug jelly___come home soon

21. saosin___you're not alone

22. simple plan___ i'd do anything

23. sugarcult___memory

24. sum41___we're all to blame

25. the birthday massacre___play dead

26. the cure___just like heaven

27. tokio hotel___unendlichkeit

2009-10-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

play guit with lilly ytd...

mock exam today...

then went to eat at kfc.

watched movie with vay, audz honey, miu, ying, just, kanen, sha. cloudy w a chance of meatballs.. it was.. NICE! surprisingly..

then got photography course. then saw ms chua's doggy...
and saw joseph at the window. peeping in our little container classroom.. hehehe

then went home with y.w... afiq call.. ajak go swimming.. -.- wow. at night.. with the guys... rright.

anyway, yeah im hurt. no, everythings not okay..

i dont feel like we're the same anymore.

yeah of course im happy for you, but i feel so distant frm you.

distant happiness?

its not a laughing matter, im not amused by this.

everytime i want to mend the frayed ties, its being pushed away

no im not blaming you, i blame myself.. somehow or rather.

when i hung up the phone just now, lightning struck at that moment.

thank you God for synchronizing my emotions with the weather. pretty cool idea to get me worked up about this.

i miss you, you fucking idiot and i get angry just thinkin about it.

i was silent during the 3rd phone call, cause i was holdin back my tears damnit.

i dont know what else to say.

pfft, i feel like im in a freakin relatioinship... tho we were never even tgth =.= urgh, lame right..

anw, im so sorry zul for missing your performance thing! i had photography ):

goin to meet arfinksy and lilly tmr... then go flea mkt with yw and st and mel. hmmm what to wear?

nothing again..

2009-10-20T08:07:00.000-07:00

okay i wana write a better post.
so in the morning i was freaking scaredddd... like cold and stuff, but it all turned out okay in the end.. though i irritated some frens abt how scared i am!
tried to comfort x.y and stuff..
and gave donovan a hug.. :/ hope he's okay.......

wanted to meet up with afiqos but my dad was a bitch cause he made up a plan to eat tgth and he feakin cancelled it... cb.. so i didnt meet afiq. cause i was so irritating (and helplessly BORED i might add!)

so i stayed at home and yelled "IM BOOOOOOREEED" n was irritating my brother by jumpin on his couch and nudging him to buy a nitendo ds or a wii or sumth... so he said " go ask dad ahh"

and so, out of boredom, i irritated my dad and i was jumpin on the sofa and lying in the opposite manner (like, head towards the floor and feet touchin the wall!) and i screamed " I WANT A NINTENDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... I WANT A NINTENDOO"
and he was like "ohh, okay.. how much is it.. when u want" fuck those qns... it means he's not gna buy it or hes gonna take a fucking long time.. pfft... stupid... my dad always give me false hope all the time.. ewwgh..

so i got bored of kacau-ing people and i plugged in the amp and fucked my guitar.. (gettit? play guitar, main guitar, fuck guitar? lol ok nvm-.-) i turned it quite loud, and mom got irritated so she closed the door of my room..

songs i played so far:

cassie(flyleaf)

decode(paramore)

darling (estk)

my heroine(silverstein)

starlight(muse)

supermassive(more muse)

time is running out(even more muse)

i bet u look good on the dance floor (i forgot this band's name)

12:51(i forgot again... OH the strokes)

plug in baby(muse AGAIN)

hell song (sum 41)

crush3 (paramore)

ok i cant think anymore....

okay then i got bored again so i started to sing! hahahah really irritatingly (cuz i was loud)

so.. songs i sang today:

ambrosia (alesana)

apology (alesana! :D )

the flood (escape the fate)

critical acclaim (a7x)

dear maria (all time low)

i stopped thinkin 2 minutes ago...

bestie ask me go down hang out with him and wii and amir and irfan and stuff but i cant cause it was already night... sighh... you cannot believe how sad i was... and fuckingly bored....

i dono what else to do so i online lorh... so thats my retarded irritating boring dayy...!(:

so i tried to complete the sum 41 solo and ohmygawd!! i can catch up to the tune!!! i feel so happy... like seriously... im like reeeaaally elated cuz it seems like such a chim solo... yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay happiness(:

so i was done fucking my guitar... i kept it back in the bag and my energy was aaaaalll used up..

so i couldnt be irritating if i tried..

nothing

2009-10-20T05:19:00.000-07:00

I PASS PROMOS!

I miss you..

2009-10-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

i miss this retarded idiot..

i suddenly remind myself of the stupid retarded times w him..

he was the one who kept me happy...

supported me 24.7...

i owe him so much, yet i cant give him anythingg...

so in about 7 hrs time, im gna face my doom.. promos results! oh my god.. please pray for me....

i dun wana die young...

and so life goes on...

2009-10-19T05:14:00.000-07:00

i just dont understand...

how can i cry while typing angsty messages on msn? fuck!!

thats so fucking retarded....

so anyway, went out with mom and mom... went to tampines and stuff...

just walk walk... then went to eat at some bishan place..

rosemary lamb shank is heaven!

then chill out at pasir ris, watched transformers and ruby gloom or something.. super cute show.. hahah.

then got home and slack some more.. yeah boring day..

wanted to go out with eweedearest but nooo~..

on the way home?

okay i totally gotta watch more gundam... its killing me that i watch anime halfway2... eughh...

so yeah, congrats to bestie for finally finding someone worth it to love..

im fuckingly happy for you! (((: and im sorry for all the anger.. PMS. is. a. bitchfuck.

PW and lilyLOVE.

2009-10-18T05:36:00.000-07:00

went to imm mac to do PW.. it was kinda slack as usual, but its a good thing cause we dont feel so pressurized and too stressed. stress is bad, as you all know..

joseph said i looked like a hippie.. haaha goodness... but its okay, i like hippies c:

okay so we're almost done for PW, just need some FINAL final final touch ups and it'll be great..

i really pray that we get a good grade.. i mean, it'll be devastatiing to flunk this thing that we worked on for a year...

anyway, its taking me AGES to type this blog...

thats cause im busy lookin at lily allen videos...

gosh.. she's so cool... i love her accent

she fuckingly reminds me of me in this picture SERIOUSLY... total inspiration!! <3

lillys kinda revolve around me i guess.. like, my idol is lily allen, one of my besfriends is lilly, i'd probably like lilly flowers as well.. lilly lilly lillyyyy....!!!!

i dreamt of you last night.. c:

おやすみなさい!

pictures up soon!!

2009-10-17T07:24:00.000-07:00

today, i went out with some of the most warmest, cuddliest closest friends in my friends list:

Naf, Nurul, Ummu, Ewee

ohh it was lovely. we had a lovely lunch at pastamania, where i finally had my linguine beef bolognese which i had been craving for..

and we watched a lovely movie called Julie n Julia, at ciney.. it was sucha warm and peaceful show, full of french elements and deep mature thoughts. me and ewe gourged down the entire popcorn and sprite.. one of the first few times in my life where i managed to finish movie food!! :D

towards the ending of the show, me and ewe were already leaning close on each other's shoulders (total lesbo moment, but i like it!!) and we were all putting our feet on the chair at the front( dont worry, nobody was there...)

and dessert at frolicks was stellar... although, i DID think the yoghurt brought my coughs back! oh dear... then we went to far east to shop.. ummu bought her blue vans and stuff..

OH! i just want to say thank you so much naf for the souvenier from laos! its so cute c: looooove!

then naf, nurul and lumm had to go so me and ews went back to cineleisure cause she wanted her shoes... oh my.....

we were hunting for shoes for a reeeeeeaaaaaaalllllyy long time..

then iman came and recommended his opinion and in the end, ewe bought a pair of awesome light brown middle cut sneakers worth 100plus... yumm..

suddenly i had this urge to pierce.. so i texted wan(that beloved bro!) to sorta meet up at causeway pt and see if the piercing person was there. so i chionged all the way from somerset to woodlands, only to realize that the pink haired piercing lady wasnt there.. (i guess last year i got lucky when i wanted to pierce cause i was there at the right time at the right place) so i wasted wan's time and mine too...

so i wana say sry bro for totally making you waste your time and risk yourself getting nagged at by your mom. seriously im super sorry... :c

when i got home, i got nagged at by my mom cause i changed my jeans.. i just heaved a sigh and let it go... i remembered... in the morning she randomly asked me to hug her.. and when i did she started to cry a little.. yeah, stress from dad, from her sisters.. my mom is probably the most patient, deserving person i have ever met. how i wish i could give her a better life... one day perhaps.

someone said i have a face of a goddess tonight.

i beg to differ... im only human. with human problems on human skin.. gosh, it would be cool to have goddess-like skin, though.. you'd be silky smooth and glittery all your life.. kinda like edward cullen. ^^

i cant believe im sleeping in a Miss selfridge spaghetti straps right now.. i must be crazy.

oh well, i gotta sleep.. big P.W day tmr... *groans..* its sooo gonna be a drag!

おやすみなさい!

(oyasuminasai)

boredom

2009-10-16T07:21:00.000-07:00

i am super BORED...

sleeping all day sucks. seriously.. i miss my girls and dai kor and stuffs..

i dno what i should wear for tmr.. meeting up with the sec school people..

dno if its gna be fun or not.. cause, we havent met for so long..

i'd been watchiin random vids on youtube and i was watching jay sean's down... (which is addictive, though im not much of a fan of the genre) and i cant help that the hot girl character in the video looks like aly... seriously, like ohmygosh!! so hott.. hahaha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGxcL8CYYoc

i dno how to let u guys see it here, but here's the linkk.... okay, i feel like eating cookies now..!

naf

2009-10-15T06:58:00.000-07:00

i miss ya, nafster... i miss the old days.. i miss the security.

sorry...

anw, went out with rima. play arcade like crazy basterds, wooh wooohhh!!! hahhaha

it was mad fun. cause rima is a good joker... then, went mac to eat mcflur then walk home...

when i got home, i was stuck outside for like, half an hour cuz there were alot of people in my house praying and i had my period so i cant like anyhow walk..

and that half an hour was TORTURE, cause i had to pee.. real bad.. hahah

so i beeped afiqos but he was outside, so i cant pee at his house.. but oh well, i peed at home anyway.. hehehe

din go to sch today, cough like hell.. green goo in my throat

okay, i dun feel that bad about everything now... not THAT bad...

fuck the world 1oo times

2009-10-14T18:50:00.000-07:00

i wouldnt want my 100th post to be full of hatred, but it is..
i hate admin. stuff, seriously, its sucha drag.. why cant life just go on without all these irritating halts along the way... and fuck my parent and bro (shall not say which ones) for not caring about the fact that i lost my ic aeons ago... and when i need it for exam, when i complain complain, THEEEN they take actions.. and hesitative actions i might add!!!

really shows how much they CARE (or rather not care) no wonder the f.b quiz says im lackin of love in my life... -.-

and my bestfriend, for crying out loud didnt even tell me where she went.. got me texting like an idiot, waiting for no reply..

FUCK THE WORLD. nobody really cares.. when i do bad things, people notice and look down. when i do good things and care, people just act nice in their little plastic niceness, then just walk away. fuck la fuck this cheebai fuck thing..

i said a bunch of vulgarities infront of my dad this morning.. then he thought i was cussing him then lecture me. then i said "i didnt say you what!" then he keep quiet. guilty ke pe!?

fuck lah i want to get out of here..
why must apocalypse be on 2012? why not just 2010...

i realized that ive been saying that i hate my life since the age of 12.. (cuz i rmbr my mom saying its a sin to say that when i was at that age) wow..

i really think no one cares about me..i really think so.. i see people's blogs talking about how they would be crying and they would be calling their friends for support and their friends would cheer them up and stuff... yeah i dont really do that..

the only time i cried and my friends were there to support me was like, twice in my life, where i was slitting my wrist in sch(then i guess they got scared so they had to cheer me up) and when i couldnt take it and just cried and they were there and i couldnt hide it anymore... and maybe this other time in chi garden and i just felt like crying cause i dno what else to do at that point, cuz i cant like, not cry.. i dno.. like i force myself to cry, ynoe..

in other crying instances in my life, it'll just be a forced cry infront of rock, a "i cant stand it anymore" cry infront of my dad and brothers, a guilty cry infront of my mom when i hugged her this one time of my life,

and a genuine life sucks cry when im alone in the dark in my room, where no one cares..
yeah thats the best. cause nobody knows...

im in an angsty mood these few days.. why? cause nobody cares..
i will cuss as much as i want.. cause nobody cares..
im gonna be mean to you... why? cause you wont care..
im gonna be more quiet that i ever was. cause i know you wont care if i do so. right?

i think im gonna cry in the corner now.

p.s: i loooove staring at my bro's gf in hatred last night.. love..

air force

2009-10-14T01:58:00.001-07:00

lynn: *looks at rifhan's friend's blog* OMG she is so chio! joseph, look! *gushes like a lesbo*

joseph: hmmm...... ok lah.. i think amalina prettier...

lynn: errr riiiiiiiighhhttt...

han: joseph! are you woo-ing lynn?

lynn: -.-...

i love my PW group though.. we are quite on track... with half the effort! cool or whut yo.

today, went to air force museum. SNORE FEST!

in the morning, hang around in the canteen.. and tried to get away from geeks.

has anyone heard of people who play weird enthu nerdy card games and bring it around in sch???

i mean, ive seen geeks haf this little geek group playing geek card games on tv but i never seen it in real life!

im sorry if i come out as MEAN, but im just not used to doing this whole nerd thing...

'do you want to learn how to play the game?' uhh.. NO?

so i plugged in and faced thew other way the whole time.. im sorry for being too mean.. i really am...

its kinda exhausting to try to be nice and tend to them when they have no one to hang with.. it really is... i beat myself up sometimes for replying them.. i just cant hurt people's feelings in that direct way so much, y'noe?

so anyway, the journey to and from the air force shit was like wtf... i was sleeping like a dead fish, snuggling with my long sleeves and stuff.

the museum itself was like... hmmm, is that it?

but i was like CRAZY about the air force girl's uniform in the sixties!!! so chio!!!

and the current no.1 uniforms (for girls).. so purdee!

then bus ride back to college(snoozing like hell), then do PW with the group. do do do do dooo, then hang around in the m.c room, eat some candy, couple of laughs with vada and yw and stuff, then went home... and SLAAAAACCCKKK....

hmm.. i miss talkin like a mean idiot o.t.p like that. lols

IHG!!

2009-10-13T04:11:00.000-07:00

INTERHOUSE GAMES WAS FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was in the bowling team so we went to CDANS to play bowling.. yeahh! indoor air-conned sport...

good choice or whutt yo!?

at first, i was SOOOO NERVOUSS!!!! i was like, talkin nonsensical crap with demas and yingwei, trying to chill myself down.. haha

but when i really got into the game, it was actually quite good!

i heard demas tell ying wei "eh she very calm leehh" hahah but deep down inside i was shakingg!!

but the support from the KELLER TEAM WAS GREAT! we all support each other...

and when any one of us got gutter ball, we were like 'awesome!" hehehe like, in a funny way la, not mocking..

I CHOSE A PINK BALLLLL!!

so we play play play, then in the end, WE GOT THIRD!!!!!!!!!!!

WHICH IS SOOOO NOT BAD FOR A FIRST TIMER LIKE ME!!

omg i was so enthralled and excited and ecstatic!!! i high five my teammates like crazeyhhh!!!

my best was like, 102 points.. haha kinda crap, but its gd enuf for me! heheh C:

GO BOWLING TEAM KELLER 1 in lane one! heheh yeahh! theres derrick, demas, ying wei and lynn!

then, from CDANS, we took a ride back to college and slack around with the class peeps..
WE SAW THEM SKIP!

it was soo cute! i know they were pek chek already, but there was spirit.. really there was C:

then we hang around the basketball area and check out the people who were playing bball and soccer and all that all that....

then saw naufal... hahahah "HIIII NAUFFAAAAALLLL...." so kepo! J2 also wana play!! go study la hiyeerrr!! (but good luck for A's okay, dude! i mean.. semoga berjaya! hehehe)

then saw elton, who i didnt realize was my senior until two days ago... ok i am SO slow...

i didnt know west side people were so much eyecandy-d upon in PJ... seriously!

then chill out with the little group of us... play tai ti... talk crap, eat pocky, talk crap.. hahah

slack like crazehh! heheheh.. but the end of th day was the best cause i got to see him score, like thrice??!?! hahaha coolness.. well, i dont know what i think now la.. hmms, nvm.

i look fat here.. HAHAH!

then went home with YW and her fren, leslie C: a good going home partner, she is!

then i got home and show my bro the medal...

zack is proud, very very proud...

thank you abang for being my coach! oodles of LOVEE!

tomorrow is learning journey at air force museum..

i hope it will be.. an O-K trip.. :s

just lookiing forward to hangin out with the clique after the whole shitcrap.. C:

i think im getting old... like master Splinter...

guitar;cliques and IHG nerves!

2009-10-12T05:11:00.000-07:00

ibanezzzzz hehehe

Stupid guitar enrichment course... they taught the stuff i already knew.. -.-

i shouldve sneaked in to go to cartooning course with my girls...

harhh nvm luhh, atleast got to crap with saaaaaiful abit... (who is stuck with the already-known knowledge of guit w me!)

and the instructor was kinda cool.. laid back and cool.. hehehe. and i got to help subz with the fingering abit! C: yay one good deed.

then after enrichment course hang out with the clique till 7.. hhheheh idk why but we always haf long talks in kfc.. hahah weird.. but fun la. i love us cuz we dont talk about other ppl in a gossipy way.. and we're not mean cuz we're nice enuf to accept all and not judge so much on status n stuff.. good ppl, them.. we dont create probs but try to solve em? idk.. lols

then tmr got bowling inter house games!! gosh im so scared!!!! O.O wish me luck siaaaaaaa!!!!

talked to demas about the whole meet up place n shits... gosh im panicking for nth!!

ohkay im gna go play guit now.. hahah bye!

goody two shoes boy

2009-10-11T01:21:00.000-07:00

I think im too much of a bad girl, and hence, undeserving to crush on him.

or maybe he's too much of a good boy?

does anyone know if smoking a one month old cigarette is disgusting??

fuck!

2009-10-10T17:29:00.000-07:00

idk wazzup with the title. just felt like typing that. heheheh

went bowling with zacksters and kak warni... it was ohkay, but the way he teaches me is like... really, making me want to cry.. lols. like, seriously... ><

then we went to the arcadeeee! kak warni wantd the stitch doll in the teddy picker machine but i obviously sucked at that too... hahahah I'll tell you what i dont suck at though. Daytona.. hahaha

totally pwn-ed my brother at it.. hehe then play the drumming game thing(:

okayokay, i gotta confess....

i just wanted to spend some time with him...

it makes me a teeny bit irritated that he always listens to his gf. then he would always wana bring her everywhere... even when its just going to the stupid 7-11.. it disgusts me :C

its like, ive been pushed away.. violently.. so i just keep my mouth shut and look away..

so every time i spend a teeny wee bit time with him, i'd be content. i sound like a stalker, idk why.. lols.

i cant WAIT to pierce!!! justin pierce w me ok?

baik ah bro! hehehe

2009-10-09T19:32:00.000-07:00

rawr; im amylanozzzz mayn, yeahh~

my oh my i feel like race car driving today.

i dont give a flying fadoodle-head fuck if i waste my time or money playing arcade all day.

i dont have playstation or xbox anymore so i NEED my dose of video games.

im a video gamer... yup. trained since three.

so dont ask how does gaming benefits ME.

its a "bro" thing..

i am everybody's bro anyway.

Heck, even my DAD calls me bro!

ive been brought up that way..

when i was very small, i remember my brothers having the foozeball thing in our house,

and they used to be all crazy about street fighter and stuff.. (i used to be scared of blanca, tho!)

and teenage mutant ninja turtles.. (the red one is called raphael, selena.. for goodness sake!! "ooohh,, i like the reeed onee~~~" irritating posers...*mumble mumbles..*)

then, gameboy came out.. the very first versions, with the cartridge and stuff!

yeahh, that was when i started to be into this whole boy stuff..

then as i got abit older and my brother was in their adolescence years, they had fender guitars, skateboards, marvel/dc comics, bicycles and all those boy stuff...

Of course i had my Barbies and my dollhouses and my ballet and frilly dresses.. but i always had this urge deep within myself to do the things my brothers do.. i liked playing soccer with them.

can someone be schizoprenic at the age of three??

well, i blame akinski... he was the one who brought me up anyway c:

SO ANYWAY...

anyone wana arcade with me one day?

hello kitty guitar strap? ))):

2009-10-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

PROMOS OVER

went shopping with lilly..
actually wantd to go shop with lena and x.y but they bring their drama fren then like..
akward.. so.. tanak.. ><

anw i didnt buy my fckin hello kitty guit strap cause its OUT OF STOCK!! knnnnnnnnn!!!!!
hahah imagine that.. ka ni na ni na ni na ni na ni na ni na ni na ni na.. HAHA!

but i bought a stellar checkrd shirt at zara... yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...

I WANA TONN WITH LILLY AGAIN!
all those nights i spent with you, all the way till morning... *winks!!*
hahaha eh! u think i do what huh huuh??
hehehhe

no lahh..
the stuff i do with her are like, really fun..
i go late at night gigs with her (with levan of cuz),
i new yeard with her..
i go skate with her until 2 am (with a random guy's skateboard! he lent it to us! heheh)
she go eat potatoe thingy at my house( idk, my mom's cooking la.. hahah)
she's like, already a part of me like that... <3

now im just waiting for my brother to wake up so that i can go bowl/arcade with him...

BANGUN LAHH ABANG AKI!!!!!!

QUICKLY END LAHH, PROMOS !!

2009-10-06T19:19:00.000-07:00

i am Not cute, ramly burger man! o.-

TWO MORE GODDAMMMM PAPERS TO GO AND ITS THE END OF PROMOS!

im down with fever and sore throat n shit like that): but its ohkay i sposse...

oh fck it i frgt abt O.P and A level malay!! ><

anyway, these are the list of things i wana do aft promos!!

1. shopping with marlyna

2. waffles with wan

3. hang out with shiqin more

4. camwhore with lilly/naf at c.g! and maybe get yw to take pics? yeah she's stellar at that!

5. jam w the bands!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(:

6. teach miu how to play guitar^^

7. arcading with afiq??(superbowl arcade is like WOOH!)

8. cycle with the clique and lilly!!

9. go raya-ing w the girls

10. Haji lane/ far east-ing with melanie

11. ice skate and k.box with e clique( especially x.y!)

12. do well for OP and Malay exams

13. change blog skin

14. steamboat with yw and donovan?

15. go to gigs + zillions of movies~!

16. try my hands at cooking =.=

17. make stupid videos with lilly and maybe ewe~~

18. get snakebite/wrist piercing

19. buy hello kitty guitar strap at swee leeeeee!!!

20. get prezzie for achid and s.t

21. bleach hair!!

リドワーン and guys clothes.. ahhaha

2009-10-04T02:04:00.000-07:00

リドワーン Thank you, bro! you are stellar!

i am freaking prancing around like a freakin schoolgirl today^^

why? i dont know^^

but i love this feeling. weeee!

by the way.... ANTI FLAG IS THE FUCK!!! i love chris #2 he is the BEST!

yup.. there he is.. with his mohawk and white shirt. so punkrock baybehh!!

i realize i like guys with mohawks.. ahahh but it CANNOT be short.. if its short, its really scary and too tough-ish... fauxhawk is cool too(:

and guys with tinted hair.... thats real hawt... like my crush... and like khai((: but now his hair black already... ape laa cuzzz.. hahaha but if his hair is naturally blonde/brown, its way cool too...!

and guys with that click five hair... its ok, IF and ONLY IF the guy has a pretty face.. then that indie look works. hahaha!

and guys wearing shirts... not exactly like the office shirts, but like those white shirts or something.. with a belt. like chris on the pic above! hes so hott..

fitted Tees are GROSS! unless you're super thin, then those fitted tees work, like those emo kids... like zimmy!!! yeahh, he could pull off that tee thing.. cause fitted tees on super buff guys just creep me out...

singlets/tank tops creep me out too! unless its like the renoma ones like sacha. i think only he, and kai can pull it off... it really depends on the body type?? not too muscular not too thin, for this category. haha.

and im SO in love with zacky's Affliction tee! looks cool on him(: big tees are cool... like tom kaulitz!!!

idk why im talkin about guy's clothes... i guess cause im shallow... cause some guys' sense of clothing might not be totally fitting for him to say the least... i think dai kor understands... he dressed up our classmates before, and it looks waaaay better((:

but i like you just the way you are(:

thinkin'

2009-10-02T05:46:00.000-07:00

yayy~ today was FUN!!!

hehehe

okay so we had our international history paper in the morning...
then me and s.t and x.y and lena and justin had breakfast at mac(: and walked around lot one,
then at comics conn got like the alarm sound when we go in and out of the store.. hahaha i didnt steal anything ohk!

then me and s.t and justin met up with yingwei to go superbowl and practice our bowling for the comp. hahaha geez i SUCK! hahaha played 3 games and i was 2nd for 3 times and 3rd for the last... geez...

then we explored the inner, more hidden parts or superbowl..
THE ARCAAAAADE!!!! woooh! damn nice lahh!
played initial D(for the 1st time, so i suckd! hahah), then play Daytona (shi ting is freakin good at it!! ahahah) then we play bishi bashi((: then we play trillions of rounds of the drumming game.. hahah damn fuuun! got this one jap song that reminds me of afiq, cause he sent me that sing before... so cute la the song!(ok the whole idea of arcade and daytona reminds me of him... sigh.. :/) hahah justin sae he wana play DDR next time... O.O OMG. hehhee

THANK YOU DAI KOR FOR BLANJA-ing US!! <<3

then we chill out at KFC for like, 4 friggin hours!! haha new record...
we talked about everything... its really fun, i felt like super comfortable...
like, its a really "safe zone" kinda feeling... i really miss that feeling((: thanks guys for making me relive the nostalgic moments on life((:

i love the safe zone
i love thinking about the past
i love being surrounded by dear friends
i love thinking about my crush(ohkay im random! but i keep on thinkin about him, i cant help it ok!^^)

i got a crush on you

i hope you feel the way that i do

i got a rush when im with you

i got a crush on you, a crush on youuu

(ok im insane)

p.s: if you're reading this, i just want to tell you that i blame circumstances, not you...

woodlands and facebook(or lack of)

2009-09-30T04:19:00.000-07:00

how come all the guys i actually like dont have a facebook account????

seriously im quite pissed at that fact.
is it because theyre too cool for that?
or maybe they actually have a life rather than just sticking to the computer, talkin to nonsensical people and reading nonsensical nonsense?
or maybe its because of the fact that people i like are just different.

well whatever it is, its creating a barrier, fast.

yesterday was quite fun.. quite lahh..

went jalan raya with the woodland people a.k.a band mates and band related friends.

walked in like what, 6 inch heels from 11 to 6... 3 blisters...!!! heheheh crazzyyyy...

their houses were all so niceeeee... well, thanks bro for sayin my hse is cozy(:

we also celebrated achids birthday(: choc n rasp cake is stellar~

p.s achid, happy birthday.. altho you didnt reply me, its okaye...

and this guy called ahmad has a lil brother and hes damn cute!!! ahhaha

and this guy called zul has a lil sister and shes damn cute as well!! omg i like kids who are 2 and below, less destructive^^ hehehe.

well, didnt really camwhore... ): but its ok i guess...

i realize how girls go all out if she's into someone... i wonder why... where has the art of subtleness gone to? sheesh.. chill.

gosh, cant go through a second without thinkin of you

stop being self indulgent, lynn!!

2009-09-28T01:31:00.000-07:00

okay okay!! so im bored and high... lolls..

i guess cause GP is over!!

JEEE PEEEEE!!! IVE DONE YOU! (ok that sounds wrong)

and ive done my best, so i just hope the results will make me cry in happiness or sumth...

cause passing gp would be AWESOME!

but im still scared, still got a long way to go..

that day, last day of school b4 exams is it? or 2nd last... oh yeah 2nd last... thursday...

that bad omen day...

like in the morning, that thursday was a freakishly hellish morning, like..

there it was, the sun shining, but it was kinda dark, and raining... weird?

then i walkd up th stairs and azizul scared me to death with his random wave of his hand towards my face.. lolls! it was kinda cute tho! haha.

then in the afternoon, WE SAW A DEAD CAT ON THE SCH GARDEN!

its eyes were white and its mouth was bleeding... omg!! and the whole A04 FREAKD OUT.

baaaad omen b4 exam baaaaaaaaaaaad...

but i wouldnt want to think of it that way...

bad things have happy endings... right? RIGHHTTT???!?!?!?!?!?!? awww c.mon...

but today wasnt so bad.. just hope tmr would be okayye... :/

my mind is unset

2009-09-22T02:39:00.000-07:00

lynn, your ass is on your belt... lols.

i hate my teeth, cause theyre weird. the two front ones are big like bugs bunny...

and the fangs irritate my tongue... bleahhh....

watching Two Of A Kind on youtube is the shitt.

2009-09-20T20:22:00.000-07:00

my fave part of raya... FOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

theres kak wati... sis in law extraordinarier..

eekeeeyyyy

the ever so mentel nadrah~

que(: yay! we match~

kaii..

while counting duit raya to be given to the kids on malam raya, i did this(:

this year wasnt that bad... as much as i want to feel that raya spirit, it feels like its all gone... shreded into thin parts and blown away.. dont know why...

i wonder how he looks like in baju kurung..

2009-09-17T14:06:00.000-07:00

SLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!

okthxbye.

must.. resist... computer....

2009-09-16T05:05:00.000-07:00

okaye, promos are coming and what am i doin??
hangin on the com!???!
sheesh!!! study, lynn! stop procrastinating!
you need to get promoted!!

anw, sometimes i wish you could stop looking away,
so that you can give me that precious chance to actually smile...
so that i can aknowledge your presence..
can you stop acting cool and stuff? its so predictable.. hahah..
or maybe i can say "hi!", wave frantically and run away from you((x
okay that would be stupid. hahaha

how many more days to raya??hehehehe i dont know-.- 4?

random thots

2009-09-15T07:57:00.000-07:00

to the people i miss:

afiq: do your best in ur cca. sry we cant be there for each other
naf: gna see u tmr so takpayah emo messages! hehhe
lilly: thanks for being my secret message in a bottle... youre the sister i nv had!
ewe: i miss the fact that i can talk shit w you... miss ur comfort thats long gone..
ridwan: HIIII bro!!! hahhahha
sufi: sufi cute!!!! hahahahahaha
wann(absolution): im gna make u like hardcore whether u like it or nt!!!! hehehe
min: ok A.H is a nice place to get att to(:
adelina: suddenly thot if u... IMY MADE TWINNIE
hidir: i miss texting you bro... i nv got to say thx for ur support since the start of Os!
achid: bdae cmin up so dun go all emo on us!!!!
naddie: miss crappyness ehehee!
sharil: my mom saw ur super4 at the carpark. lols!
shiqin: NEED to go out soon!
marlyna: NEED to go peninsula aft exams!
nabil: movie buddy! our hobby is too expensive.. hehe
abg gabriel: im not goody two shoes alr ok
levan kor: wtf famous already then MIA ahhh lols
zimmy: youre emo hair was the coolest. ps, i lost the bear you bought me><
aie: met you once, no.. twice.. ur sch and at DXO.. tho u were in my pri sch!! hehe
arynne vengeance: ur so cool+gorgeous.
fays: hope ur doin good..
arf: lets chiong!
cheekiat: when are we gathering-ing?!?!?!?! lols...
aaaaaannnd all those ppl i missed out... sry... /:

ang mohs and spoilt brats

2009-09-15T04:43:00.000-07:00

AZURA KATHLEEN MCILWRAITH...

fuck i miss you, girl..

i never gotten to say thanks for the treat at daily scoop...

i like hugging you cause you smell of j.lo live..

i love your ultra cool nose, gums and wrist piercings. im so gonna pierce after promos.

you brought me closer to jay, those times..

you were the "sad cheap imitation of goth"

you told me alot of things abt yourself, and i wonder why you'd take the effort to share em with me...

but secretly, i think you were the awesomest nicest hardcore chick(:

today just pisses me off...

i feel so restricted and looked upon...

MYOB cann, just cause youre spoilt doesnt mean you can do whatever you want.

so what, hottie..

so anyway, miu yen is a genius! you me at six is like, the coolest band ever...

last time i was them at kerrrrang, they looked so cute and boyish... now theyre like mature...

yeah, ang mohs la.. heheh.

confession

2009-09-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

by the wayy, i miss you kiki...

i wonder how you look like now that youve grown a lil bit...

how many months already?? little rascal, you wont remember me will you?

you wont know your dear mother, you wont understand your father.. you wont recognize me and zacky and grandma.

i'd always remember how i frustrate myself with you.. but you'd make that feeling go away with you innocent smile.. that sideway smile thing you do when i kajiao you..

i just wish that when you grow up, youll be strong, even though youre mama aint there.. she's there, though... watching upon you from way up there..

i wish i can see you again...

anw, i hate his ego when he's with her... he's a changed guy... i dont know him anymore...

he's piercingly cold.. why? why must it be you?

why cant you be the same guy who raised me since small...

why cant you play vid games with me anymore?

why cant you play soccer with me and teach me stuff? why cant you smile when i talk to you.. why must you be so different whenever youre with her? hati saket.. i miss kak ina...

once in my life...

2009-09-13T05:04:00.000-07:00

once in my life..

i want to match clothes colours with my family during raya...

i wana feel like im a part of them...

even though i know im not...

i wana feel that closeness with them...

that feeling when it was 10 to 16 years ago..

my god, i feel pathetic. ive only been feeling like im a part of them for 6 yrs out of this 17 yrs of my life..

maybe i know im not mean to be with them..

so i shud stop thinkin about "what ifs".

i should stop hoping for the day things wont get akward.

i just know that...

when i grow up and get a job, i need to repay them somehow..

i know im talkin jibberish here... soryy, bye.

FRENSTER

2009-09-10T09:34:00.000-07:00

OMG.

i cant believe i was the fuck in friendster..

ULTIMATE emo/scene queen...

like thousand plusplusplusplus friends,

bajillions of "testimonials" and pic comments...

i really couldnt believe it...

now times have passed.

ive started seeing thru ppls intentions...

ive chosen friends.

ove let go of the past....

facebook is normal. and real.

no more plastic ways t get attention.

its all over...

for now... (:<

G.P C.G WTFLMAOROFLOMFG

2009-09-10T05:33:00.000-07:00

today, went to library and finished GP!!! WOOHOO. but i know i need more practice...
so much to do, so lil time... sighhhh... JIAYOU PROMOS COMING!!

then, went C.G with the little group of woodlandy tourists!! teehee!
too much crapping and fooling around? but we settled wad e need to settle.. sorta(:
hmmm.. i think ridwan is by big brother now... who stepped on my toes... like how brothers do.. lolls! kinda fun, tho it was hot and i was wearing a hoodie.. heheh.

sat going jamming.. lena following... God help me play decently.. hehe
i never buka at geylang ever in my life before!
we'll see how it goes on sat. o.0

heh

2009-09-06T09:24:00.000-07:00

i Love Them~!

2009-09-05T05:22:00.001-07:00

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
today went neoprinting.... hadnt done so fr a looong time lorh!!! omgomgomg pix up soon!
i absolutely love hangin out with yw, my and st... productive seyy^^

2009-09-04T03:15:00.000-07:00

リドワーン..

COOLEST NAME EVAH!!! hahha

p.s: i swear, im gonna stop puff-ing... :(

update

2009-09-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

went to NUS today... got a free plant.. HAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAH!
ytd went out with the girrrls... vivo... watched band slam...
addictd to V!!!! lolls.
idk how many times i buka outside already... sighh.. poor mom..

clique

2009-08-29T11:11:00.000-07:00

"It's cool to find someone who listens to the same genre as you do! Lynn's taste of music is somewhat similar to mine, just that I'm not that into screamo/metal;) But we do like a few bands and it's so nice to share your music with someone who knows the lyrics to the songs. And she's such an awesome friend to talk to that you can tell her anything under the sun, from music to eyecandy to food! I wish the people in school were easy to talk to, so I don't have to rack my brain so hard to just find a sensible topic to talk about. Or just shut up." -miu yen

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW! how sweet?? i.love.miu! and i so agree that i love talking to people like this. it feels so carefree and makes me go on with my life in school in a much easier manner... sometimes people can be such a nuisance. sometimes people just pisses you off.. other times, im just thanksful to have a really tight clique.

2009-08-29T10:37:00.000-07:00

Baybeats... lotsa kids.. but more hardcore-ish kids at burger king buka-ing?, where me and lilly buka-ed at too.. total lesbian mode.. saw steven(hey steven) ... tired.. finished alot of work but today need to finish alot of work too.. cant sleep... been practicing how to play a bunch of indie n alt songs... yawn...

i miss you..

2009-08-24T06:00:00.000-07:00

babe.. i guess time has caused us to change.

i feel like i dont know you anymore.

i cant feel your hug anymore, i cant see your smile anymore.

who are you? why are you taking on a different persona?

maybe i didnt know you from the start.

maybe im just dumb enough to believe that you were true to us.

i was naive enough to hope that we would stay as one clique forever.

that is never going to happen.

im depressed.

1. I MISS MY LIP PIERCING! i reli do. i want one during hols. i really miss it..

it may just be a measely metal thing jutting out from my mouth but its significant to me. my memories. my progession..

2. I HAVENT SEEN THAT IDIOT FOR SO LONG. i dont know why im acting this way, sryy...

3. PROMOS ARE COMING! and time is running out*plays muse song*

the raaaawr scene

2009-08-19T02:45:00.000-07:00

HALLO KITTY SAYS: IMA FRIIIK~!

hey you, i got a couple things to say bt if i say it today i think it wont end up this way so shut up and listen, if you think you're hurt from this well i guess thats too bad cause bottling it up just makes me mad.!!!!

how about.. i cant be un-ignorant about the fact that your heart-wrenching stories makes my eyes roll. i barely know you anymore. dont think i want to. cause as i look deeper, you surface your selfish ways. shallow... so easily spotted. by ppl like me anyway... show off summore la. i dont mind wan.

ao anyway, i passed by econs for th first time in my life today!!!!

i love ben por!!! ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty !!! ^^ awesome teacher la!

anyway... i realized my genre will always be the same.. as in i will always love the genres that are related... ok lets see...

age 9-12--> punk scene.

12-14-->goth/gothic lolita

14-15--> emo going hardcore

15-16--> hardcore/post hardcore/emocore

16-17-->scene/himegyaru

its always rock-ish collabo with japstyle... lets see whats in store for me next!^^

lets see if anyone follows me(yet again)

yes i THRIVE on uniqueness. well, almost!

jap crazed!

2009-08-14T05:20:00.000-07:00

YESS!!!!!

I FINISHED READING MY ZETTAI KARESHI MANGA! its like mad awesome can! ^^

and i watched the Nana movie as recommended by x.y and yingwei... its damn nice la its like seriously seeeeeerrrriiiioooouuussssslyyyy the same as the anime version... well done weel done.... and i reli like Ren in the movie... *gushes!*

today was like, damn relieving aft sch la... went to eat at pepper lunch with yingwei and shi ting. and got abit crazed with all the cute random things at mini toons n action city.. hahaaha damn fuuun! sumth kinda funny happened to yingwei.. hehehe idk if i shud share it.. check her blog if ur curious, that is.. if she posts it!

tmr gg studying with.... idk.. someone... i dono who im studying with hahha.. ok i wana watch nana2 NOWWWW! or mayb simpsons.. heheh.

2009-08-12T07:35:00.000-07:00

p.s:-

DON! STOP CALLING ME LYNN KELLER!!!
and stop it with Angela.... hahahaha^^

balderdashingg

2009-08-12T07:19:00.000-07:00

MY VIEW OTW TO SCH EVERY MORNING.

even though the sky looks awesomer and the sun looks like the japanese flag, i still feel a sense of intangibility and hollow-ness in me...

its not like going to jss every morning...

even tho my ride to jss always concerns dark and gloomy looking skies, i still find my journey very pleasing, maybe cuz of the comfort of knowing where im heading:- a second home where eveyone knows one another. that sense of warmth that sense of belongin.. its so comforting...

unlike my journey to pj. though the sky will always show how beautiful the day wil be, im always disturbed by discomfort. like something is going to happen. the unpredictability is scary. it may look nice and lovely on the surface, but if you go deep beyond the beauty, you will find nothing. emptiness.

what am i crapping? lolls. anyway, i like calling xueying x.y!!!! hahahah ok random..

gosh i love bball... hehehehe! oh and mr por is like awesome or what? loooves~!

bahhh

2009-08-11T05:28:00.000-07:00

gonna get eyebags tonight... just like that one up there in the pic... gaaaah
im scared for econs..
SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED SCARED like seriiiously..

but im glad MR BEN POR is my econs tcher... he's like the most awesomest econs teacher eveeerrr!!! *giggles!* ^^

okayye, got to chiiong now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dont i look so ang moh in that pic? hahahah any xy damn chio la^^

so far....

2009-08-10T02:32:00.000-07:00

RAWR~!

okayy, alot of things happened.. lets write on...

1. I GOT A HAIRCUT!

2. I THREW AWAY MY EVERLAST BALLET FLATS!

goodbye goodnight for good dearest. i loved you well....

3. GUITARGUITARGUITAR!!! i got three bebehh.. in ma ruuum!!

this picture looks like three pocong hantu ghost shits.. hehehe bt theyre guit bags^^ wohooo

4. a sudden outburts of ACCESSORIES!!!!!!!!!!!! and clothes and makeup! wooh! lovelehh

5. starbux's staff are classy mats. *nods with approval*

6. KENDURIs ARE FUN but very2 tiring!

7. KAK WARNI: THANK YOU

i sound like i just won 4D. hahahaha

2009-08-05T06:35:00.000-07:00

HATE is a strong word. But i really really dont like you!

grrr!

2009-08-04T05:30:00.000-07:00

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. i dont want to layan nonsensical comments. i dont want to care whether you said hi in msn or any IMs. i wont even want to bother if you had been drowning in you own insecure thoughts with respect to my actions. if its important, just say it.. if you just wan to know whats up, dont bother IM-ing me cause i wont reply, since its a waste of my time entertaining guys that way! if youre bored go play video games uhh, if you wana noe abt me, go my blog or f.b uhh.. what else you want?.

Call me arrogant? YES, i am arrogant. ive had enough of people commenting me about my sombong-ness, even when i didnt do shit to you. so, fine.. call me arrogant. i dont care!

im a princess. im arrogant. and you cant do anything about it.

making right choices

2009-07-26T08:55:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS FUN

i got a song written and sung FOR ME! how awesome is that

its so sweet laa

then me and lilly went to ion orch to shop

YAY bought new shits...

then SAW PIE!!! n nas n ierf... *wave2! ^^v *

then met up naf n shop summore!

usual naf, awaes will try on clothes one.. heheheheh

we talk abt alot of shits maaaan its like e good old days...

I LOVE YEEEW SOLILLY UND NAFNAF

muacksxxzxczxczxcxxczxsxxcsx

then went home and saw kak warni at my hse..

hmmm okay^^

i thought wad siia some chinese tutor or sumth.. lolls

she looks as pretty as ever...

then felt the urge to webcam w zackyyyy

ok!

p.s I LOVE EYELASHES!

JC SUCKS

2009-07-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

aaaaaaargggghs so tired... i can barely open my eyes while typin this now so sorry if there are any typos whatsoever. heehe.

so had the 1st ever duty, without the seniors.. ooh yeahh.. hehehe kinda fun, but there wasnt much excitement in the air. bleahh...

that was wed.

thursday was full of well... happiness for lena? ahahaha she kept on bumpin into *inserts name* ... she was so highh hehehe.

HAPPY LENA IS A HEALTHY LENA. hehehehe

had a talk with ms steph. i kinda like her one on one.. its more... personal(:

p.s I AM NOT A PRINCESS! its the second time a teacher labelled me a princes.. oh my oh myyy.... if you want to talk about my family calling me that, yeahh i get sick of them calling me that alr, what abt my teachers? geez...

hmm anw, tmr gonna be a looooooooooooooong dayy...

LOOOONG math tutorial, LOOOONG lit tutorial, LOOOONG GP tutorial+presentations+bla bla bla... then me n ying wei gonna racky for supplies for the m.c notice board. YYYYAAAAAY! so fun..

andd and, sufi asked me if i could go to r.p to catch some random gigs there.. PAI SEHH!! arrhss~! shud i shud i??? =s

anw, afiq, dont be mad siia... i really got like project work to do... is it my fault... sorry, i know youre pissed at me.. ur such a siissy girl for that... but still... im sorrry... sighs, life sucks,. LOL.

maDE

2009-07-21T06:41:00.000-07:00

i had wanted to say something her in my bloggy but i forgot what..
anyway, im abit scared to be in a new environment if you know what i mean..
trapped within those four walls, expected to know what to do.. it just drives me akward.

anw, LEE JUN KI ROCKS! hehe just wanted to say that..

anw, i want to meet lilly on th weekends.. i miss that darling gf of mine.. /=
texted me if im free on sat, but i hadnt replied. shyte.. anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADELINA. (yes, i do remember... how can i forget?)
those two years of being attached to her as my MADE twinnie.. she was the best girl ever to be with. we would sing the entire tracklist of Young And The Hopeless together... it was the funnest, ever... if you're ever reading this, i just wantd to say that i do miss you alot..

oh well.. gotta go now, school tomorrow..
gonna get some pills and get some shut eye...

yes, i am a drug addict... a forced one at that... I HATE MEDICINE!

Thank you, cupcakes!

2009-07-18T03:15:00.000-07:00

super scribbly scandalous seventeen~!

This post shall be dedicated to all the wonderful souls who take the effort for my birthday.

*clears throat, and opens up piece of paper, full of names*

first of all thank you to mommy, for the letter(that made me cry) and handing me cash!

thank you, to daddy for the blackest blackforestSSSS that are totally awesome

thank you kak wati for the churros and cheese thingy(ive been craving since forever)

and to my entire family for being here at home w me, when im sick in my birthday(spread the germs!! erm, i mean luvv!)

thanks to bestfren afiq for popping up so randomly and for the necklace.

thanks to hanif and my darling 09AO4 peeps for the lovely pink balloon and well wishes!(and for sparing me frm a bash up!)

thanks to christine sis for the pink V.S wristlet! its soo gorgeous!
and also to xueying and yingwei for the hellokitty organizer!

and to 'my girls' for the awesomeeee friday night!

and also to justin for being the caring big brother for the night, reservations n all. heehe

and to donovan for paying for the HP tix!

and to everyone else who wrote one my wall n texted me, esp the ones who stayed up at midnight!(ewe, arf, lilly, naf, nad, nab, subs, lena, achid, etcetcetc..)

now all thats done, ive got to think about my studies.

goddammit i failed my econs and GP. as joseph wud sae: mampus!

and i got a sub-pass for math(i blame that guy who made me not study, just to be with him)

but i passed lit and history and malay(= you'd never guess how i did for malay!! hahahaha cmon! ask me ask meee!! heheheh

meet the parents session soon..

i really want to do well... can someone help with econs n GP? /=

2009-06-26T04:56:00.000-07:00

what could be more calming than hangin out with your best friend with a guitar in hand...?

in life

2009-06-05T20:04:00.000-07:00

things get lost and things get found.
cherish everything before it is lost.
or you will live to regret it later.
...

vergessene kinder

2009-06-04T01:23:00.000-07:00

A post for lilly:-

"friends forever" never existed.

cause she's gone, she's disappeared.

'where are you's and 'how you doing' was long gone

after she had just begun her brand new life

without me in the picture

oh how do you sleep at night

knowing theres somebody missing you, thinking of you

well theres nothing i can say, you wont give me a way

im long forgotten cause knowing me was such a regret aint it.

all those marshmallow memories sleeping late at night

getting high over shandy and feeling fine and dandy

its never too late to say hello

now im waiting and waiting for you to come by

its nothing too special but i just want to say

"i miss you" but you'll never be able to hear it

guess: what i miss..

2009-05-23T19:46:00.000-07:00

My wallet.. is my life..
without my wallet, i am without a life..
it contains all the essential stuff for me to carry on.
if i just lost my cash, its alright, i got my NETS.
if i just lost my ic, its ok, i just need to make alot if tedious reports.
if i just lost my ezlink, its alright, i can remake also...
if i lost a wallet w nth inside, its ok, i can always buy ANOTHER guess wallet..

but...
I LOST EVERYTHING! oh my god, how can i be so stupid?
if you know me well enough and shop with me a few times, you would have known that i clutch my wallet everywhere i go.. CLUTCH IT.. cling on to it without fail.. because i love it that much. and i would die if i lose it..
but yesterday.. i think i was too distracted by the fact that my old friends are here and i just thought i put it in my bag... well i thought wrong.. cause its not in my bag... i am sad... i am more than sad... im shattered...

i just hope pei ling or celeste finds it in sch... if not..... may god have mercy on my soul...

self-exp pix

2009-05-11T11:30:00.000-07:00

the end(:

shit

2009-05-03T01:14:00.000-07:00

we are materialistic assholes can(=

havaianas slippers, converse sneakers

raw demin jeans thingy, miss selfridge cardi,

junkfood tee at num, armani specs, guess watch, ceramic bangles( courtesy of mrs van hilten)

how shallow can we get?

but honestly, can i get out of this materialistic nature of mine?

probably not, considering i have never felt happy with non-labels.

my brother and momster told me before, that ever since i was young, i was always pampered with oshkosh, guess, esprit, benetton ONLY. she told me i would never want to leave the guess shop unless they buy something for me. she once told me i even cried in order to get them to buy this one guess shirt for me. geez, I wasnt even old enough to be aware of that!! can you imagine my endless desires now? i hate the concept of scarcity.. gahh.

anyway, i have a movie buddy! how awesomely cool.. we watched x-men ytd night and it was madly terrific. thanks buddy!!! weeee~

went hme w bestie afterwards. prolly the first time he saw me in a dress? hahahaha.

im struggling in life. yeah depression state for everyone.

i dowan go sch! damn lazyyyyy

2009-04-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

hey there.

been a long time since i updated.. really long.

maybe cause ive been hafin a friggin life these days.. LOL.

gosh i really miss lszing around and thinking about absolutely nothing..

sigh...

and i HATE the fact that i procrastinate alot.. a mean, even right now im procrastinating.. i should be finishing me econs right now but im typing this. hahaha. oh well..

i just wana tell you about my updated list of super awesome idols.

for girls it would be..

xiaxue!

taylor swift.

kiki kannibal.

paris hilton.

lilly allen.

yeahyeah, hate me for all i care.. i like these so called celebs cause theyre usually honest and they haf like, a really cool and unique sense of style. love it so much.

as for guys.. maybe...

johnny depp.

joel madden.

i used to love bam margera but he's like, so.. not the same anymore..

benji madden and billy martin is like, non existant also...

hmms.

oh by the way.. whats wrong with being bi?

i mean really.. i think its hot that girls are like, walking around and holding hands.. its like so cool luh!! heeheheh. ok im sick. well, not really.. =P

2009-04-06T07:43:00.000-07:00

i dont know the meaning of a best friend anymore.

what is it that ive done wrong in this, why do i feel at fault.

i feel so missing, ever since this morning, whathefuck was that siia.

its horrible, honestly, im tired out from all this.. series of events..

you better explain yourself man, seriously...

how could you have let go so easily........ fucked up.

iloveyou.

2009-04-04T02:57:00.000-07:00

random webcam pix in the library with dear nafnaf(=

i love all these awesome people around me. i mean really.. all my darling friends' uniqueness utterly inspire me.

the boho one.the punk one.the whimsical ones.the jackass ones.the "dont follow the herd" ones.

LOVEEE~

went to clarke quay for the photography course. we were damn hungry. but we made the best out of it by using our own personal DSLRs and school cams to take random pix. it was quite fun.

especially brian, who was sooo enthu with POSING! awesome sport(=

i was so glad i had kak watts' nikon D90 to play with. but i was really careful, so that i wont spoil her 2000 plus cam. thanks sis! youre awesomeeeee..

me, miumiu, yingweii and vay went home ourselves and we had burger king at central. hahahah. it was so nice having slacking sessions with them(=

hmm, anyway....

darling, i am not angry at him, nor do i hate him nor want him dead..

infact i am completely fine with him. i can barely care, honestly..

but you know what i hate?

i hate you(=

but its not my fault i hate you.. its just a natural feeling.

its not envy, cause im not jealous about anything.

its not hipocritical, cause you cant fake this.

its just hatred. so what?(=

oh hanif called me lynnatania. hahaha cool... i loooove a04(=

NEW YORK NEW YORK, big apple, here i come! lets all chiong for lit okay?

sigh

2009-04-01T07:57:00.000-07:00

11.11pm. i miss you~

time is of the essence. its running out.

perfection is a lie.

omigod. my careers in the ecareeers.sg suck..

Broadcast Journalists
Dancers
Choreographers
Musicians
Producer-Presenters
Copy Editors
Costumed Actors/Performers
Storyboard Artists
Artistes
Authors
University Professors
Playwrights
Art Teachers
Scriptwriters/Idea Architects

ummm... im gonna have a really unstable job, arent i.. its make it or break it.

wow. im scared. lolls.

i do miss hanging out with classmates(= thanks for your concern guys..

i am ghost

2009-03-30T02:06:00.000-07:00

it says rock is dead, long live paper and scissors. bought it at num....

anw, im currently reading up on past IMs of the conv between me and my bloody valentine(no, i dont mean that in a bad way, i call all my valentines that.)

"i was abt to sleep. but thx to u i cant alr. like i keep thinkin"

"ok i only trust you.. *gives frenster password*"

"nak jelak dgn bini i uat pe xD"

"termelayang hati gue ke kamu"

"(syg i tak?) always do syg"

"i miss u like hell"

"kite syg lynn tau"

"idk why but everytime i wanna online or look at other girls.. my mind wil be like.. lynn lynn lynn"

"i swear i love you"

"its like the first time im dying for someone"

"as long as its for you, i dont mind"

"hahah ok... but must promise... must stick together... dont make it a waste"

"love u soo much muacks.."

"Its ok... I jus wait for u k... U..... I love u...."

"hahha i cume nak u"

"love you always. sry kalau i terlalu bz"

"kept thinking of u sey everyday"

"accurate u low. pasal tu u miss i alot"

"dont go gugugaga on me to much la... later i die how.. susa tau.. my soul cannot rest... nite2 n lurp ya"

"and evrytime i cant meet you, it hurts"

"i dont want u to be hurt by my stupidity"

its not that i want to. i just cant help it. i cant find the reasons why....

and all around me, theyre not helping me make things better. maybe they do distract me every now and then. but the reality of it all still arises. this mixture of feelings. this toying around.. i thought i was playing around too. but i wasnt. i realized that i never play ard. im too darn fucking serious.

anw now, my heart is steel-cold and rock-hard. i. am. emotionless...

he is uncatogarized in my folders. frankly, i have no idea what he is in my life.

...... just my bloody valentine this year, i suppose..

can anyone like make me feel any better? i am unmotivated for anything now.. especially school.. shittos.

you

2009-03-25T09:43:00.000-07:00

MY FAVE BFMV SONG OK?

I'm coming home,

I've been gone for far too long,

Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving,

Have I fucked things up again,

I'm dreaming,

Too much time without you spent,

It hurts, wounds so sore,

Now I'm Torn, Now I'm Torn,

I've been far away,

When I see your face my

Hearts Burst into Fire,

Hearts Burst Into Fire,

Your not alone,

And I know I'm far from home,

Do You Remember Me At All?

I'm Leaving, Do you wait for me again?

I'm Screaming,

No more days without you spent,

It hurts, wounds so sore,

Now I'm Torn, Now I'm Torn,

I've been far away,

When I see your face my

Hearts Burst into Fire,

Hearts Burst Into Fire,

My bed so cold so lonely,

No arms just sheets to hold me,

Has this world stopped turning,

Are we forever to be apart?

Forever to be apart,

It hurts, wounds so sore,

Now I'm Torn, Now I'm Torn,

I've been far away,
When I see your face my
Hearts Burst into Fire,
Hearts Burst Into Fire,

.... if i dont love you, i wouldnt have met you.

am i the law or the exception?

im pissed at myself.

take your risk and open up. i wont bite, i swear.

i miss you, but i understand.

i am so stupid.

would you still rmbr me after evryth is settled?

im gonna be dead emo tmr.

i miss you.

i should be studying now, but im not cuz i wana say this.

i love your intense eyes.

im listening to bfmv now.

and maybe some metallica later.

i love the smell of shisha

i suck at playing guitar whenever you are around.

heavy guitars suck cuz i cant even carry.

im dying frm the inside

i have more than a yr to study my A levels

im not pretty

and i love being bimbotic

i always anticipate your texts

i understand you.

im calm now. stoned but serene.

love is too strong for me to hold for now.

but i'll be waiting for the day my love becomes true.

yours too.

is this supposed to be a poem? hmmm.. anyway. do u even understand what i mean.. lolls.

anyway, i wana be emo tmr... saves me the trouble of faking up smiles.

iloveyou~!

2009-03-24T06:50:00.000-07:00

VROOM VROOM VROOOOM!

went out with abang sharil todayy.. hahahah! yaaaaay.
he acc me buy present for zacky and then we went to eat at B.K!
omgee thanks for todaye abang! ily~! hahahahah..

there was sumth weird abt today tho, like, theres this dumb wedding thingy that stopped us and like force us to listen to their photoshoot thingy..
abg sharil: no no shes my sister, my fiance nt here
dat cheena dude: orh, okayye so *explains like shit abt his promotion*
abg sharil: ok yarh its nice and all but i reli got to send her home already
dat cheena guy: ok but you see ahh *explains like shit*
abg sharil:yarh ok i only got 5 buck right now so yeahh
*more negotiation and blablabla* and we went off. it was damn long lahh!! hahahaha dumb ppl dono wads rship and whats not...

anw, bought zacky this adidas shirt and printed out a card. its the least i can do for my adorable crazy headbangin brother right? hahahaa... looooveeee him! hahaha

OH OH OHHH! YTD I SAW UMMU AND YEEHUI AND HAZEL!! gaahhh miss them so much.. hahah sorta lepak w em awhile... its like so cool luhh.. like, diff jcs and all..(x one day we hang out ok ummu? lolls, stop pestering abt it alr! hahaha.

okaye, currently doing sum dumb ymca proj thingy.. PLEASE LUH i got poems to annotate! i cant afford to waste time! and

I WANA SLEEEEEEEEP)X

why im chilling out

2009-03-22T04:12:00.000-07:00

today is the last day of the hols.

am i ready for school? nopes. not at all.. LOL.

its nt that i hate school or anything, i like it.. but i just need more time to study(which i DIDNT! O.0) i am soooooooooooooo screwed! weeeee! but atleast i have my new uniform now. lolls. and i can hardly care anymore, i dont know why.. hmm.

i didnt take this time to study, instead, i played video games! goshh.. should i sleep later tonight? probably not..

in a few minutes time, going to go for a buffet dinner w la familia.. weeeee~ i wana eat bak kwa and bak ku teh. hahahaha kiddiiiiiing~! i wana eat siew mia!!! yumm!

2009-03-21T07:18:00.000-07:00

I CUT MY NAILS! ))))x feeling so empty and akward.. im not used to short nails.. goshh.. its veryveryvery short, i feel bald. hahaha!

and iswat goes: xD my birthday wish came true!!

lolls.. darn youu seyy(x omg i wana camwhore w iswat and his gorgeous blonde hair!!
hmms.
anwanw..

omg i miss you guys too cheekiat and yaseer a.k.a my brudderrrs!!! hahahahaha we should lepak next week ohk???

hmm

2009-03-20T05:42:00.000-07:00

wire-d mess

went jamming with the guys. YAAAY~! it was totally headbangin. heehee.

i really miss them and all. im so glad theyre my friends cause theyre like really nice and friendly people.. cause some people tend to get egoistic or maybe too serious when it comes to this kinda thing but theyre totally great w me around(= gonna do it again next week? with two other bands in the room? playing punk rock? yaaay?!~ xD teehee.

abang sharil texted me via facebook. omg i miss him like siao! but the way he typed out his words are rather.. hmm.. formal.. but i hope i get to meet up w him soon! though he has his c.g duties probably and i got sch. but heyy, who's rushing? i cant believe he still rmbrs me and my rships and all that. wow... i rmbr randomly bugging naf out of nowhere, with my talking about him. like "omg naf i miss abg sharil! u rmbr him right? i wonder where he is.. prolly forgot me already" and all that.. haaha. awwww~!

i have a new security "blanket": my hoodie.. i just have the tendancy to cover myself up with it. momster thinks im hiding something, like dyed hair or sumth. wth? what can i possibly hide w.o getting totally caught in school? pfft.

i get SCREWED alot by my parents these days. why? they say i have attitude problems.

but mommiiiiee vaaatiiieee... dont i always have attitude problems? since sec 2??? whats WRONG with them? just cause my moodswings vary drastically.

oh dearr.. i dont want the holidays to end!!! )x my oh my, i burned up my week just like that *snap!* burned it like a worthless piece of shit.

oh well.. gotta chiong tmr! now, i wana SLEEP!

p.s: i have GOT to stop chasing after cute guitarists!! they are driving me crazy! honestly, why must the one i like be a guitarist? you know.. the typical ego ones. since sec one siia ive been with guitarists. are they too addictive?

p.p.s: LYNN MISSES ISWAT CAN? ORHKAYYE? teehee~!

poofed up like a timmy turner

2009-03-19T05:57:00.000-07:00

BOO!

yesterday was GREAT! watched COMING SOON with my girlfriends.

oh em gee.. i was cursing and freakin out all the way!

im so so so glad i was wearing my Bebe hoodie so that i can seclude myself throughout the movie.

lynn: *asks ewe* is this gonna be the scary part?

ewe: its gna be freaky ahh

lynn:*sees the scene of the movie*FUCKING SHIT! hahahahaha!! fuckfuck siall!

heehee, i swear i was irritating, but the ppl in the audience were fun too. laughing here n there. teehee!

we took random videos at esplanade too! and went hajj lane to chill.. i totally miss chilling at nice random places w my girls. its so nice. alas, we were tired. (and damn hungry!)

so we went jp to eat. =D went home and slept early.. honestly, i dont wana get nightmares ytd night. but i DID like, wake up suddenly in e middle 0f e night. like THRICE!

today, supposed to meet miumiu and justin to study. but i totally pang seh them. omg i feel so baaad))x soryy darling! i had to like, go buy lame shits w my parents and all.. it was sooo boring. i got like, damn screwed by my dad for making "wrong decisions" and not having a good sense of direction. lol. i was damn sad.

but he made up for it by bringin us to eat chicken+duck rice!!

and the best part abt today is...

i got my uni already! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~! but oh snap, i needa buy a tie by monday /= hmm

oh well, anyway..

tmr going jamming with my band! gosh i miss them like hell!*hops ard like mad!*

tweedle toodle doo!

xoxo~!

p.s; I MISS ABG ZACKY AND ABG NASH! frankly, i love those boyish times with them. i love playing soccer on powdered floor, and playing shooting games using a dumbass spray bottles for ironing, and playing endless video games. thanks for the influence bradas.. if not, i wouldnt have totally owned a guy, playing arcade games! wooooo~! heeeheheeh. but really, its like, we grow up so fast.

oh and p.p.s; i miss abg sharil also.. gave me a msg on facebook, made me recall all those awesome memories. *hugs!*

2009-03-17T18:36:00.000-07:00

yesterday, i learnt how to cycle(=
thanks bestie.
and i totally ROCK in marvel vs capcom. hahaha

today, im HOPING ever so hoping to go out with naf and lilly. i miss them soooo muchh.